Sunday, January 2, 2011

Growing up

Hello 2011...The world is supposed to end next year. I hope it doesn't though because there is SO much I haven't done. LIKE: Get married, have babies, See the world... you know those things that EVERYONE should do in their lifetimes. Things I have done in my lifetime have all pretty much happened in 2010. I moved away from home, living on my own ( haha righhhhtttt...)I've gotten in EXTREME debt. Which no , i'm NOT proud of. I've made new friends , lost friends, Gained weight, flooded the dishwasher, failed a cleaning check, Met someone whose changed my life , come back in full fellowship of the church , strengthened my relationships with many people in my life, admired the courage in someone I look up to,lost friends because of death,rekindled my desire for school.
I've done much more than that , but those are just the big examples. This year though I've set some goals for myself and I feel like i'm much more determined to achieve these. I feel a sense of drive in my life that I have NEVER felt so strongly before. My new goals are going to take A LOT of work , but they're goals that will make me a better person in the long run. Isn't that what's important anyways ? I've set 3 that MUST be accomplished this year. I've set others that I just want to get started on this year. The ones that MUST be accomplished this year are :
1) Get out of Debt. I put this one first , because it's the most important out of all of them. It will probably take the most work too. Elder Robert D.Hales once said " we go into debt to buy things we can’t afford—and things we do not really need. Whenever we do this, we become poor temporally and spiritually. We give away some of our precious, priceless agency and put ourselves in self-imposed servitude. Money we could have used to care for ourselves and others must now be used to pay our debts. What remains is often only enough to meet our most basic physical needs. Living at the subsistence level, we become depressed, our self-worth is affected, and our relationships with family, friends, neighbors, and the Lord are weakened. We do not have the time, energy, or interest to seek spiritual things." I've done this and I want to be rid of the debt so I can be free to do other things.
2) Go back to school. I have been feeling really low about my education. I stopped going to school ,and after a 2 year break from the "real" college experience , I feel like i'm not doing anything.Like i'm a burden on society. I once told Gregg one night in tears , that what I want most is to know that the world is a better place because i'm in it. I want to make a difference in someones life. I want to make a difference in general. I want to feel like I've done something with my life. I feel like going to school would help me achieve that. Even if I am only getting a photography degree.
3) Lose 15 pounds. I know a weight goal. Everyone is saying yeah , that's going to happen. Honestly i'm really going to work at this. I feel fat , apparently I look fat , and I can't fit into clothes I really like anymore.I know I haven't been living the healthiest life-style , and I feel like now i'm ready to change that. It helps that Gregg is going to be so supportive.
Anyways i'll blog again later , but right now i need to get ready for church. Love ya'll !

1 comment:

Steven C said...

That's fantastic you are putting a priority on getting out of debt. It takes a lot of dedication (and sacrifice - you won't be able to get it just because you want it) but as you know, it will save you in the long run. We are "finally" getting serious about it as well, and I am *a lot* older than you are! :-)

-- Steven