August 2nd 1988

was a very momentous day. it's the day i was born. so yes my birthday is today!!! wahhh hoooo!! I'm 21 yep. wanna know what i did last night in honor of my birthday? I organized my closet. and got rid of SOME things... i'm going to finish tomorrow after church. while i'm doing my laundry... yepppers. that's about all i got. k bye.

I'm probably gonna cry in 2 seconds flat.

That should sum up how i'm feeling right now. I turn 21 in 3 days and i've never been more depressed. this is an honest statement.

Not feeling it.

I have to be at work at 5am tomorrow morning. I'm not feeling it either.I have 3 theorys to why.1) It's that time of the month and i'm not feeling much of anything right now. 2) I havent talked to Gustavo in forever so i'm pretty depressed right now about all that involves getting out of my bed. or 3) I am just way excited about the vacation I have coming up wednesday morning. I personally think it's a mixture of numbers 1 and 2. the combination ending up as." It's that time of the much and i'm pretty depressed about anything that involves getting out of bed." do you agree? i think so.

I wish...

Today...well yesterday I guess it is. technically. anyways , It was Gustavo and my... me and Gustavo's ? i dunno. It was our 22 month anniversary. I wish he was here to celebrate that with me. But he's not. and hasnt been for the last 11 months!!! crazy huh? My Gustavo has been out serving the Lord for the last 11 months. That's almost a year ppl!! I'm so proud of him for dropping everything and doing that. I'm sure I don't tell him that enough, but I am. He is a very busy boy being district leader and all but he's made time to make me a Birthday present for me. Which I should be getting Friday ( crosses fingers) Although i now know..(boo) that there will be no engagement ring attached to this present.(a girl can dream). I'm excited anyways. I'm just super ready for it to be christmas already. that would mean that my LOVE is almost home. in 8 months. anyways. it's like 1am here. but I just wanted to wish Gustavo a very pleasnt anniversary. LOVE YOU!!

P.s. Tonight I had a movie night all by myself. It was wonderful. I watched Must Love Dogs, December Boys, and Work and the Glory. what a great night to myself. yeah I half dedicated that to Gustavo. The other half I enjoyed for myself.