Yup i'm still allergic

So uhm... it started out as a little red circle on my throat that i asked my mom to diagnose... she said it was probably ring worm or something like that and that i needed to take some antibiotics for it, so i took hers with the before mentioned penicillan in it. My mommy said maybe i outgrew it. I took it , but i definately did NOT outgrow my allergic reaction to it... I now have more pretty little rashes all down my throat... haha , i'm still allergic. haha.

My scary freak out ... isnt over.?

I was awake at 3 am i guess yesterday morning now. but anyways i was looking at pictures of me and Gustavo... when i had the SCARIEST realization... I couldnt remember what it felt like to hug him... or what it felt like to kiss him... and i'm dying inside now. how can i possibly be forgetting the one person in this life who i've fallen completely and madly in love with? I dont think i've stopped crying all day... I feel like i'm slowly forgetting everything that's important to me. i cant put into word s how much it hurts. it feels like a dream. it feels like he's just a dream,that i've never really met him , i just dreamed him and that i've woken up and i'm forgetting the best dream i've ever dreamed. I'm so afraid that one day i wont remember anything but the fact that i knew him. Thankfully he sends me pictures faithfully so i think it's going to be impossible to forget what he looks like , still , i'm so afraid of it. oh gosh .... what's happening to me? to my life? to me and gustavo.?

Most Beautiful and touching Piano piece EVER

So , after much hunting , i found some of the songs from the twilight movie soundtrack on facebook. My favorite would Have to be Bella's Lullabye. It's probably the most touching piece i have ever listened to in my entire lifetime. It reminds me of the love me and my Gustavo have for one another. Gustavo is my Edward Cullen. I love him... more than anything in the entire world. Of course this song makes me want to tell Gustavo to write me an Afton's Lullabye that he can play for me on his guitar before bed every night once we're married.seriously i've listened to this song about 5 times in a row. I cant wait to marry my Gustavo!!!

and yes!!!

...AND yes , i do happen to mark days by when twilight comes out , and when my anniversary with Gustavo is... , I also mark weeks by Mondays and Fridays...
MONDAYS= Emails from Gustavo, sometimes actually chatting
FRIDAYS= Snail Mail from Gustavo... yaya

Days go by....SLOWLY!!

"To fall in love is awfully simple, to fall out of love is simply awful."
This happens to be my favorite quote ,i don't know who it's by , but I love it. It's so true . I get a love quote on my blog every day... and every time i log in it's different , and this is the first one i loved. Anyways ,I logged on because my friends are watching a movie , and I was missing my Gustavo. I miss him so much and in ... uh,lemme think twilight comes out on the 21 which is 10 days from now , our anniversary's on the 26 , sooo our anniversary is in 15 days ? and he'll have been on his mission for the 3 months on the same date. I'm DYING. I miss that guy sooo much. I just want him to be back. I want to be spending my evenings with him , not my friends...well them too , but mostly him. He's my Best friend for EVER AND ETERNITY...gahhhh i just want him home. I know that's probably mean for me to say , and bad. but i'm kinda upset i didnt meet him later. like i dont know ,AFTER his mission? not before? so lame... Oh well ,I guess i'll just suffer through it. :(

I'm allergic to penicillan

So my mom was gonna let me have some of her anti-biotics to take so i could start getting rid of the Mono-like Symptoms i've been feeling in my throat...( I know these symptoms , because i've had mono before....good times) anyways i take one look at the bottle and see the big bold penicillan on the label , i'm like mom are you talking about these pills , she was like yeah. so i go , I CANT TAKE THESE THEY HAVE PENICILLAN IN THEM!!! ( said in a panic voice ) she's continues to say "You'll be fine.." I laugh and go ....I'm ALLERGIC TO Penicillan...at which point she goes ..."oh...yeah." ...so basically i just saved my own life...I guess sometimes my mom just forgets that oh, i dont know , I COULD DIE if i take penicillan ?