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Dear Blog...

Greggory is working. My family is in GA. Ginny betrayed me..Jamie is my new best female friend. I miss Gregg. I'm going to run away. I think. Can't I just move back home to GA? work at the chicken place again? I want to move back home mucho. But I want to be with Gregg more. AND I'M TIRED OF PEOPLE GETTING MARRIED BEFORE ME. I'm disowning my cousin. I know it shouldn't bother me. but it does. I'm not in any rush to get married mind you. I'm just tired of people getting married before me. can they just stop for a little bit. wait for me to catch up? MAYBE???? I want to wake up from this dream. Possibly I would wake up still in Utah , but like the day after I moved here? before I was an idiot and switched over to tmobile. But could Gregg still be my boyfriend that way ? probably not. so maybe I don't want to wake up.I just want to prove to everyone that I can do this. that I can live on my own. That I can make good choices and not be tight on money and ... I don't know. I feel like such a failure. wow... i've been having a pity party. A big one. I think I would like my job a lot more if I had a Car...le sigh. I need a hug. I just want Gregg to love me. And I want to be closer to my family. I feel like i've been banished. or not banished. But sent away. and to think I chose to come here... WHY???????? I really need a hug... REALLY REALLY REALLY. I would just go over and see Gregg , but it's after midnight. But I REALLY need to see gregg...I'll just wake up early and go visit him. Probably waking up him ,but I need him to hug me and tell me it will be all right. like he always does. the end.

Scary stuff

I had a scary weekend. I went to Delta this weekend and everything was fine between me and my boy. On Saturday though when we came back nothing was great at all. He didn't want to marry me anymore , and he didn't even know if he even wanted to date me anymore. I sat down and talked to him and he eventually decided that yes he did want to date me, but by an hour later he didn't know again. He didn't know for sure that he did until yesterday morning, where he said he wanted to date me , but not talk about marriage yet. I figured that was a understandable compromise that I was willing to make. I know I'm supposed to be with him forever, so I knew as long as I could date him , he'll come to know that too. So now I just wait. It still hurts a little bit, but by last night it was ALMOST like nothing had happened.Oh well. I'm thinking I need to shower and get some dishes done. all so I can go see my love. I also have grape jelly stuck between the a,s,and z buttons... haha so this is taking forever to write.