Online Window Shopping

Just for everyones information. If you ever want to buy me clothing and know i'll like it here's a hint of where to shop.
1) Victorias Secret. I'm IN LOVE with this store. seriously. I'll love ANYTHING from this store. I even have my own personal wish list on the site and i'm VERY sad that a certain dress is sold out. LAME.
2) Anchor Blue. This has to be my number 2 favorite store. Gregg introduced me to it about 2 weeks ago ? ( we were in the mall window shopping out of boredom) and i instantly fell in love. there's this cowboy type shirt that i'm just dying to have right now.
3) Hollister. I've loved this store for as long as I can remember. I even worked there. I'd love to work there again. Sweaters and hoodies are usually a safe call at this store.
4)Papaya. CUTEST clothes ever. There are a few outfits from here i love. I worked at a kiosk across the hall from this store and would just stare at the displays all the live long day. It's love. Plus the clothes aren't too expensive.

My New Job

My new job is to babysit/Nanny 2 adorable little boys. They have 2 older siblings , but i'm only there for the little ones. They are super cute. Marcus, the 2 yr old , Is so funny. He cried for a while after his parents there , but with the help of his sister he quickly got used to me and was adorable after that. He managed to get into my wallet and find my 2 dollars. Then all he was doing was bouncing off the walls, pretending the blinds on the windows were ATM's and pulling the money out. quite hilarious. Then there is baby Alex.He's 4 months old and by golly i've never seen a happier baby in my life. literally. All this boy does is smile and laugh and coo at you.My favorite part is when he sleeps. Not because it's easier but because he snores.It's way too cute. That was just my first day though. I'm sure as I get to know them I can tell you more of their adorable little things that they do. The hardest part will be getting to their house. The bus stops at state street and i'm going to have to walk the rest of the way. Plus their neighborhood is very confusing. We shall see though. Anywaysss. I've got to go. Peace out

Yay for a new jobbb !!

Afton Can finally quit Mr. Network. Which makes her Oh-so-happy. Literally. My new job ? I nanny for a family in American Fork. They have 4 kids , but I'll be watching their 2 year old and their 4month old baby. Am I excited? YES!!! This is literally my dream job. I love getting paid to do something I love. Play with kids all the live long day. To make everything even better , Gregg and I finally talked things out and I'm feeling fantastic about where we are in our relationship right now.

Who Cares...?

Oh my day. Well , more like Oh my last night. I've never been so sad in my life. Correction, I have , it's just been a while. Fine , it's been 4 months-ish. I won't go into how sad my life is or isn't because , honestly everybody has their days. Different things that are or aren't big deals to them. So while this may be a big deal for me , you guys may think that it's nothing. So I've decided to not care.I can't make other people feel the way I want them to feel , I can only decide how i'm going to respond to it. What's going on in my life could really bum me out.Or I can just deal with it. Take it in stride and move on. That's exactly what i'm going to do.I've decided to just enjoy my life for what it is. Gregg could dump me and yeah it would be sad ,but you know what ? If that does happen (I hope it doesn't) , we had a good run. Which is partially why i'm sooo sad. We didn't break up , but we have had to make some tough decisions about what we're going to do. Which brings me to this question right here. what do you do when you're faced with a decision and your brain says "let go" , your heart says "hang on a little longer" and your soul/spirit says "you're ready". what do you do? That's what's going on with me right now.I don't know what to do , so what am I going to do? Change my background pic on my laptop , take a quick nap , and maybe cry some more. I also keep thinking about something I heard on Greek ( a show I watch) that was a quote. it was " some people are meant to be in your life forever, others were only meant to make an appearance." Now all I have to do is decide who was meant to fall in what category.

Happy New Year to Afton.

Oh hi. I know I already commented on the fact that it's new years , but I just wanted to re-state the fact. I've been applying for new jobs like CRAZY. Mostly because I hate the one I have. I have a really good manager though,so I can't really complain.Still I hate my job. I heard back from a nanny application I turned in. Thing is, I need a car. Actually if I had a car , my life would be a billion and one times easier. Well , maybe not ,because it would be another bill , but you know what I mean ? It would be easier to find a job because I could extend my search. Anyways. My life has gotten slightly better since we last spoke. Not that my life was hard then ,but I was SO STRESSED. Really. I'm worried about how i'm going to pay bills, i'm worried about my relationship with Gregg. Not so much anymore. Gregg and I talk all the time. So as worried as I am about certain things, I've decided to just let those certain things go , and enjoy our relationship for what it is. The bills is still kind of a big one , but now that i'm back at work i'm not super concerned about it. It will be something that ALWAYS stresses me out , but now I know that at least I do have a job still and that money will be coming in. I'll still have to sell my plasma for extra cash but whatever. Anyways , I think i'm going to go for now. Talk to you guys later?

Growing up

Hello 2011...The world is supposed to end next year. I hope it doesn't though because there is SO much I haven't done. LIKE: Get married, have babies, See the world... you know those things that EVERYONE should do in their lifetimes. Things I have done in my lifetime have all pretty much happened in 2010. I moved away from home, living on my own ( haha righhhhtttt...)I've gotten in EXTREME debt. Which no , i'm NOT proud of. I've made new friends , lost friends, Gained weight, flooded the dishwasher, failed a cleaning check, Met someone whose changed my life , come back in full fellowship of the church , strengthened my relationships with many people in my life, admired the courage in someone I look up to,lost friends because of death,rekindled my desire for school.
I've done much more than that , but those are just the big examples. This year though I've set some goals for myself and I feel like i'm much more determined to achieve these. I feel a sense of drive in my life that I have NEVER felt so strongly before. My new goals are going to take A LOT of work , but they're goals that will make me a better person in the long run. Isn't that what's important anyways ? I've set 3 that MUST be accomplished this year. I've set others that I just want to get started on this year. The ones that MUST be accomplished this year are :
1) Get out of Debt. I put this one first , because it's the most important out of all of them. It will probably take the most work too. Elder Robert D.Hales once said " we go into debt to buy things we can’t afford—and things we do not really need. Whenever we do this, we become poor temporally and spiritually. We give away some of our precious, priceless agency and put ourselves in self-imposed servitude. Money we could have used to care for ourselves and others must now be used to pay our debts. What remains is often only enough to meet our most basic physical needs. Living at the subsistence level, we become depressed, our self-worth is affected, and our relationships with family, friends, neighbors, and the Lord are weakened. We do not have the time, energy, or interest to seek spiritual things." I've done this and I want to be rid of the debt so I can be free to do other things.
2) Go back to school. I have been feeling really low about my education. I stopped going to school ,and after a 2 year break from the "real" college experience , I feel like i'm not doing anything.Like i'm a burden on society. I once told Gregg one night in tears , that what I want most is to know that the world is a better place because i'm in it. I want to make a difference in someones life. I want to make a difference in general. I want to feel like I've done something with my life. I feel like going to school would help me achieve that. Even if I am only getting a photography degree.
3) Lose 15 pounds. I know a weight goal. Everyone is saying yeah , that's going to happen. Honestly i'm really going to work at this. I feel fat , apparently I look fat , and I can't fit into clothes I really like anymore.I know I haven't been living the healthiest life-style , and I feel like now i'm ready to change that. It helps that Gregg is going to be so supportive.
Anyways i'll blog again later , but right now i need to get ready for church. Love ya'll !