Realize.

Today I realized I set A LOT of high expectations for myself. Unbelivelbly high expectations that are mostly unattainable. Then when I fall short of these expectations , I beat myself up about it. So work gets very hard on days like today. when EVERYBODY I work with has gotten very little sleep , and are kinda short fused. I think we all held it together pretty well ...Until the end. By the end of all our shifts, we were so gone. especially me. mostly me actually. I wont go into details, but it got rough. out of all this i've gotten so much. Kevin told me that if I ever needed to know how i was doing and what i could improve on i could just ask him. and he'd let me know and help me get started on that. so that's nice. And probably the best thing i learned today is that i'm not letting Doug down. and that's important because He's like another father figure in my life. I look up to him. So i'm glad i havent let him down . I hope i never do.

On the downside of today... I dont think i've gotten a letter from gustavo in like 2 weeks. no wait i got one on monday. i think. but still. I miss him. and his letters.I mean i'm not one to say anything because i have trouble getting things mailed off to him on time ... but when i do manage to get them mailed off i believe what i send him is pretty awesome. He can correct me if im wrong. but still....gah. I miss him. he needs to come back in ...soon. yup ok nap. bye

Wanna hear a good story ?

This story is about the picture above of me and Gustavo ( the blog title picture)

So once upon a time this really cute prince and this not so cute princess were invited by their friend Princess Michelle, to go to the corn maze. So Prince Gustavo , Princess Afton , and Princess Michelle went.
Upon arrival princess afton found this cute little wagon and insisted that pictures be taken. So prince gustavo pulls afton around in the wagon , then they switch and afton pulls prince gustavo around in the wagon. all of the sudden afton wondered if they could both fit. so she told gustavo to move back so she could see. what do you know!! they both fit. a picture was taken , and memories were made.

Moral of the story? I love how gustavo's arms fit around my waist just right.

good times. yup.

Shoes and Ties.

Today I went to CVS just to get some nail polish and decided that since I had been stuck inside my house ALL day I would just walk around some more. That's when I found it... the most amazing little invention ever. IT was a crayola kit that let you design your own tie. IT came with a white tie , and fabric crayons to color on that tie and design you could possibly Imagine. I think I will have to buy more kits like this. So tonight I spent my time Creating a tie for my love. I will have to put pictures of it up once Brett has done her little portion of it. ME GUSTA MUCHO. It was amazing and made me realize how much I really do LOVE CRAYOLA. I will always have a thing for Crayola. Please dont be jealous Gustavo. We've just got chemistry me and Crayola.

Second off is I FOUND MY BLUE WEDDING SHOES... and I convinced mommy to buy them for me. It took alot of convincing. What won her over? this quote right here: " But mommy...Brett broke my black high heels, so TECHNICALLY you owe me a pair." That did it ladies and Gentlemen. OMG I'M SO IN LOVE WITH THEM! They are the right color, size , and almost the same exact design as the ones I wanted. I was very excited that I found these shoes for 12 dollars. I'm also very grateful that my mamma bought them so it's one less thing I have to worry about next year when i'm getting everything else ready for the BIG day. Plus i'll have a color to match the Bridesmaids dresses to now!! Which is perfect. I'm going to have a cute shoe picture in my wedding album.

Photography...

I think i'm going to take up photography in my downtime...these are a few reasons why ...( because i'm so darn good. duh)

lonelies and self pities.

My dad diagnosed me with a bad case of the Lonelies and Self Pities. I've been an emotional mess this week, and it's not because of mother natures gift to women. I promise. I think it's a mixture of stress, lonely (duh) and well every single one of my friends gettin married. I wouldnt mind so much if all of them were like my good friend Andrew who is older than me and getting married , but no at least 4 of them are younger than me. It's just not right. I mean I REALLY want to be happy for them , but It's not fair. i have at least 5 friends who have announced their engagement, and one friend getting married. this has all happened this month...and the beginning of next. also within the last 3 months I have had just as many friends celebrated their one year wedding anniversary. so i'm feeling pretty down in the dumps. I've decided i need a vacation very badly. But that is just not possible right now. I have money , I just need to save that money because of A)School. B) new car. C) apartment. D)well...because I will be getting married at the end of next year. so I do need money...yes. I'm really hot. gah. I'm also pretty tired. And i need to get money out for tithing tomorrow , while i'm depositing money from Fed tax Return. wowie. yup. good times in my life. JUST KIDDING!!!

Love.

I love Gustavo. As of today we have been together for just over a year and a half. haha 19 months to be exact. Boy do I love him. So much. mmmm I think i've just been extremely close to him lately. maybe not physically , but I feel extremely connected to him lately. we may be an entire country apart, but I think we are more connected than we have ever been , and I love that about us. I can NOT wait to see him again in 16 months. I'm so excited. I am never going to let him go . not at all. anywho. I just wanted to wish my love a VERY HAPPY anniversary. :) I can't wait to get the jewelry he sent me !!!