Sorry People

So Even though I have TWO new blogs , Stupid blogger and their maintence team , managed to delete BOTH of them , so you get to listen to me rant on here for just a little bit longer. Isn't that just fabulous. So...Well ,you know. So I entered Gregg and I in a couples contest to win a free photography session. Which rocks. So ya'll go log yourselfs into facebook and vote your little hearts out :)

As Promised

Hey guys as I promised , here is the link to my new blog :) My personal blog anyways. I'll provide the link to my married blog after i'm married :) But here's my new blog. Love it. follow it. you know you want to.

http://kisses-wishes.blogspot.com/

MOVING!!

Dear Friends and Family , and soon-to-be-family. I Afton Brooke Newberry am moving blogs.

I decided it wasn't realistic for me to delete my blog , I love it too much and I fully plan on making my blog my full time journal after I get married and finish my actual journal first. ( Isn't it SO cool that they have places where you can turn blogs into books ?) BUT... I needed a change from this blog that is really just stressing me out.

My reason for changing blogs ? I realize that most of my posts on here are pretty much me venting. Nobody likes someone who vents. I want a place where people can go to be inspired. Somewhere where people can go when they're having a bad day and be uplifted. Right now my blog is far from that. Plus I think certain people are starting to think i'm psycho. So in August I will have my family blog ( big grins for starting my own 2 person mini family) and a personal blog. I will also be deleting my current facebook and creating a new one. My new facebook will be for family and CLOSE friends only.

So later today after I create my new uplifting blog I will provide the address for that and my family blog. I won't post on my family blog until after I'm married though , so don't be disappointed when there aren't any posts on that for 2 and 3/4 months.

I hope you guys will come and read my new blog and be so happy :) Here's to a year of new changes.

Letter to a friend

It was so nice to see you. Even if it was in a dream. My question is why were you in my dream ? We haven't spoken in over a year. We keep in touch just enough for me to know you're happy where you're at. We're both getting married and moving forward in our lives. Riddle me this too. In my dream I knew we couldn't be together , but it was still so good to see you. So why , when I knew we couldn't be with each other and was still perfectly happy with that , did it hurt so much when I woke up ?

It reminded me of when we used to hang out. We were both so happy and carefree. Heck we were still best friends in my dream. We never did this in real life , but we were watching a parade. Getting ready to go to some huge competition. While we never did that in real life , it was the same kind of fun. Maybe it's the way you left that hurt so much. Maybe waking up suddenly and unexpectedly from this dream hurt the same way. Reminded me how you left.

Maybe it's not you I miss , maybe it's just our friendship. What I do know is that you'll be on my mind all day. I'd rather you weren't , but we were good enough friends that I know you will be. I will say this before I close. Thanks for providing me with enough good memories to not dwell on the way you left or the things you said after you were gone. Thanks for that one last gift you gave me.

Thanks Gregg

SO. Today I called Gregg. I was like " GREGG! We're getting married in 88 days almost ! He's like yeah it's coming so soon. I was like Yeah I know I'm excited. He's like you're not freaking out thinking oh my gosh why am I marrying this guy ? I was like no. Should I be? he's like nah." Well I talked to my dad like 20 min later and was like. I'm starting to freak out dad. I'm like, I know I want to marry him , I know he wants to marry me. I'm freaking out because am I really ready ?

My father , the angel that he is , said the 2 words that I needed to hear right in that moment. He just said simply. " you're ready" I said but am I really? He then told me. Getting married is like having a kid. You're never ready. You can be more prepared for it , but you're never ready. Which is kinda funny because I was just telling my sister that the other day. I told her. " I'm pretty sure nobody prepares you enough for marriage. I'm pretty sure they try but in the end it's more like they throw you in and say 'okay figure out what works best for you'" Brett agreed.

I know I should enjoy just being engaged , but how can I enjoy this , when really all I want is to be married to my best friend already ? I miss him and I really can't wait to spend eternity with him. On a side note , i'm considering deleting my blog. I don't know that anybody really reads it , and let's be honest. It's not like i'm that interesting anyways. Opinions ?