Who Cares...?

Oh my day. Well , more like Oh my last night. I've never been so sad in my life. Correction, I have , it's just been a while. Fine , it's been 4 months-ish. I won't go into how sad my life is or isn't because , honestly everybody has their days. Different things that are or aren't big deals to them. So while this may be a big deal for me , you guys may think that it's nothing. So I've decided to not care.I can't make other people feel the way I want them to feel , I can only decide how i'm going to respond to it. What's going on in my life could really bum me out.Or I can just deal with it. Take it in stride and move on. That's exactly what i'm going to do.I've decided to just enjoy my life for what it is. Gregg could dump me and yeah it would be sad ,but you know what ? If that does happen (I hope it doesn't) , we had a good run. Which is partially why i'm sooo sad. We didn't break up , but we have had to make some tough decisions about what we're going to do. Which brings me to this question right here. what do you do when you're faced with a decision and your brain says "let go" , your heart says "hang on a little longer" and your soul/spirit says "you're ready". what do you do? That's what's going on with me right now.I don't know what to do , so what am I going to do? Change my background pic on my laptop , take a quick nap , and maybe cry some more. I also keep thinking about something I heard on Greek ( a show I watch) that was a quote. it was " some people are meant to be in your life forever, others were only meant to make an appearance." Now all I have to do is decide who was meant to fall in what category.