Happy 4th!

Happy 4th of July!!!
I worked this morning for a few hours , then came home and just chilled . I started out with a nap. Continued with some TV. went on a best buy/target trip with daddy. came home and watched loves unending promise, loves unfolding dream , love takes wing , and now i'm watching loves long journey. My family didnt go to the parade or the fireworks , but that is fine by me. I'd rather spend today just hanging out. Today I spent mostly thinking about Gustavo. Good memories. I love him so much. So today is for him :) I love you Gus!! and happy 4th of July. It's hard to think that this time last year i was saying goodbye to you for the last time :( Love you bunches!!

Friday <3

I never thought I would say this , but I love Fridays. Today was a good day. I got a letter from Gus. ( more about that hottie boy in a min) then I... got 2 checks today. One from work and one from the gov't. gotta love income tax returns.:) I got to see my best friend Joy Marie DeLay who I havent seen in 3 years. I miss that girl. It was a good day :D. even opening went smoothly. Not sure how tomorrow will go, but we'll see.

Back to Gustavo. Yesterday Gustavo and I had a little chit chat and pretty much spent the whole entire talk reveling in our love. we've almost dated for 2 years now. and that's a long time for us. Considering that before we met the longest relationships we had been in amounted to a total of like 6 months. we are VERY proud of us. lol. We both noted how we are best friends, but we also love each other with a crazy passion. We noticed how neither one of us thought that we'd ever find somebody we'd love as much as we love each other. does anybody besides me get what i'm saying? We both love how open our relationship is. We tell each other pretty much everything. and i think that's great. did i mention that most of our relationship has been long distance. bet i didnt!!

Anyways , i could go on forever , but i'll give you guys a break , because really, who wants to listen to me gush about Gustavo all day?

So...

Long time no talk. I know i'm a total bum. lets see what have i done this week ? Monday I worked 7-3 then came home and went on a walk with mamma , then went for a quick shop, then me and mamma watched a bit of Twilight. Tuesday I worked 6-3 , then went for a long shop , ended up getting the CUTEST little dorothy dress.( that's what mamma calls it, because it's blue plaid) a white shirt to make it "modest" , and a pair of cute ducky shorts for pjs. they are made out of fuzzy goodness:) then I went to see transformers with my highschool buddy Zach. me and him go WAAAAAYYYY back. ( Gus... nothing happend don't freak. I know you just did.) lets see then i came home and slept. Today I didnt work because it was my day off. so what i did was i took a shower , did laundry ,went to lunch with mamma , came home and played sims for 3 hours, then i took a nap. watched the rest of twilight with mamma AND daddy, had to explain what was going on to dad the entire time. then we got ice cream , and went on a walk with mamma. checked facebook, and now i'm on here.Tomorrow i work from 10-4 and i'll be "talking" to Gus later. :) should be a good day. Friday and Saturday I open at work , then on Sunday I think i'm going to Texas. I think.so yes. life should be super fabulous. And now my mother is bugging me to go fold my laundry so i should probably jump right on that. :( gahh lee. it's already 9:53. where has the day gone!!!! summer goes way too fast.

what i really want

I really just want to make a difference in the world. I want to know that I affected someone for the good in one way or another. I want more out of my life than I know will come of it. But that's what i really want.