Strange

I wanted to make a quick note about this. Then I'll be done. I promise. Hopefully.

I had this BEST FRIEND all through high school. We met in science class freshman year and were immediately inseparable. Okay so we graduate. For a year after graduation we still hung out and were still talking and best friends the year after. So let's to the math. We were friends for 4 yrs of high school, 1 year after wards , and we still talked the year after that. ( I was in utah , she was in GA) 4+1+1 = 6 years. Overnight This girl , this best friend , decides to never talk to me again. I can't for the life of me figure it out. It kills me , because I REALLY want to still be her friend. I just don't understand.

This little factoid led me to think about this. Have you guys ever had that one person that you were just super jealous of . To the extent that you always being jealous of them starts to annoy your boyfriend. Or other friend ? anyone in general. You're so jealous of this person , that you compare yourself to them and are just SO sure that you guys could never truly get along because you'd always compare yourself to them? All of the sudden this person turns out to be one of your favorite person and you think to yourself. Wow. We actually get along pretty well.

Well i'll start out with this little fridge quote that my mom has. " Don't compare yourself to others. You don't know what direction their life is taking them." Now Gregg said something kind of like this to me when we were first dating about my person like this.

I don't know if this person feels like we get along really well or even considers me one of her best friends, and that's completely okay. really. But it was that way with me. I really didn't ever expect to have this... friendship if that's the word with her, because there would be something every day that I was just SO jealous of .It was like a competition. It was stupid and immature because I missed out on ...okay probably not much, but it's something that if Gregg hadn't have given me a little reality check , i could've missed out on big time.

I know I've really only been "planning" this wedding for 3 weeks, and by planning i mean giving the yea or nay to my moms ideas. or working compromises , or trying to get the ideas for engagement pics and stuff like that. I'm already stressed to the max. My mantra almost every single minute of the day is " I'm marrying Gregg. No one else has to like it. You're marrying Gregg. You're own wedding. Don't be jealous that other people are getting married first , or are getting engaged and more people are telling them congrats than you. "

It's really been something that's stressing me out. I need to just have that quote everywhere. " Don't compare yourself to others. You don't know what direction their life is taking them " Why waste time and energy being jealous ? I've got my prince charming. I'm MARRYING my prince charming. I shouldn't care if the whole world didn't like it. We're in love. We both couldn't imagine a future without each other , because as Gregg put it : " a future without you , wouldn't be a future at all." We're cheezy I know.

Okay so if you made it through this whole post without falling asleep or throwing up , You win a pat on the back. Also comment and one day i'll make you cookies. Or something. Just for future knowledge i'm seriously going to try and go on a blogging diet. starting this Sunday you will hear from me once a week. On Sundays. Just.. go easy on me. I've never been good at diets.

Not the only one

Surely i'm not the only one on the planet who remembers funny things that their father did from their childhood.

For instance , there were several family home evenings that consisted of my father walking around the house pointing out what we needed to pick up . That was our lesson. Almost every time. No joke.

Also there was the time My parents decided we needed to work out together so My dad got p90 and popped it in and we all sat in the living room working out. So funny.

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What does your birth sign say about your wedding style

SIGN: LEO
Your Strengths:
You’re generous, dramatic, and a natural leader.

What to Watch out For:
Your tastes are expensive, so you naturally gravitate to the most pricey vendors and details and don’t like to compromise.

What You’ll Love:
Being treated like royalty on the big day. As long as all eyes are on you, you’ll be the happiest bride in the world.

What You’ll Hate:
Sticking to your budget. If you can’t have exactly what you want, and just how you envision it, you’ll unleash your inner bridezilla -- pronto!

HAHAHA just ask my MO. She'll tell you every last bit of this is absolutely true. and we're only a month into the planning. If that.

Life Lesson # 1

Don't Trust ANYBODY - Chances are that 90% of the time you'll end up getting screwed over BIG time. I would know. I just spent roughly 2 hours on the phone ( parents did too) trying to get a huge debt taken care of. All because some T-Mobile employee screwed me over , over a year ago , and the Orem Police didn't fax in a police report because of Identity Theft. All of this because I trusted not only T-Mobile employees to not screw me over ( mistake number 1 ) but also because I trusted the Government to do something right for a change because they're the police and they're supposed to help out.

As a result i'm still having to get something taken care of a year later. Lesson learned.

Of COURSE

Of course the one day where I literally feel like nothing else could possibly make the day feel any more horrible , is the same day that I follow my diet. To a T. I just now remembered how horrible the first few days of starting this diet were.

Did I tell you how somehow over 3 days I managed to get too fat for my wedding dress? If I didn't tell you , yeah that happened. Buy my dress Thursday. Go to the beach and not really change my diet drastically, BAM 3 days later on Monday the dress no longer fits. Tell me how that works. TELL ME!!

Then today my computer decided to act up. The mouse pad thing on my laptop is like hey Afton. I hate you and your life isn't giving you enough trouble as it is , so here. I'm just going to stop working. Thanks laptop , you're very lucky I didn't throw you out my 2nd story window.

The solution ? I go back to bed around 3pm. I decided it was time to start my day over again. Have you guys ever had those days where honestly you just needed to crawl back in bed , take a nap , and wake up with a brand new start to your day ? BINGO that was today for me. Except for my day still didn't want to work with me. So I cried and threw a few punches at my computer. Don't worry. It's still perfectly fine and actually working now.

I wouldn't beat anyone up physically , but my laptop needed a good beating. I didn't even hit it very hard, I did however begin to pick it up to throw it. I didn't though. I was like. That's irrational. So I set it down and proceeded to scream at it. I told it I hated it. Which at the moment I really did. The end.

Lonely but a winner.

Should I start out with lonely or winner ? Lonely? I agree

I'm lonely. I miss Gregg so much more than I ever anticipated missing him. I knew i'd miss him A LOT I just didn't realize exactly how much a lot was. It's like a little twinge of pain every time I call him or skype with him. Then it's another one when I can't talk to him as long as i'd like. It's just crazy and I miss him. SO MUCH.

Winner. I finally won something for the first time in my life. I my friends am Chick fil a's fan of the day. or week. or something. Either way I won a free spicy Chicken Sandwhich. Win , of all accounts. FO SHO. Now i'm hungry. And smelly , and need to shower to prep for a job interview that I don't even want, but definitely need. BOO.

Exhausted.

So I probably don't even know the real meaning of the word according to parents all over the world , but I promise, for this stage in my life that's the best term a girl could come up with for how she feels. I also realize that the punctuation in that sentence stunk up a storm. Anyways. I'm tired. My eyes ( and everyone else in the ward I feel like ) were glazed over to the max. I'm pretty sure about half the ward slept through sacrament meeting.

Thanks for that spring break. You rock. So in Relief society KP looks at me and goes "Afton , do you know where you are ?" And if the glazed over look in my eyes didn't answer her question my "huh?" in response definitely did. (quick tangent; can I say how much I admire my sister Colby?) Anyways. That's how church went.

Guess what ? I'm missing my " Big Brothers" Georgia wedding reception because i'm getting married the day of his reception. I told his mommy I would try to make it to the one in Utah though. Which could actually be VERY beneficial. So I might end up doing that then staying out in Utah for a week until my wedding. Coming up with 60 dollars should be fun.

Also..I forgot what I was originally going to blog about. Oh yes. I'm tired. Which i've already stated.Good news ? I'm babysitting 4 of the cutest , but craziest kids in my Family ward. Looking forward to that and hanging out with Elizabeth Felsted around 2ish. We're going to heart attack someones car. Someone I don't particularly care for , but Liz does. So i'm being a good friend and doing it because i'm nice and have nothing better to do . Besides i've wanted to hang out with this girl all week.

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