it's been a tough week. Me and Gustavo are in a HUGE arguement. at least on my part it's huge. and i'm not sure we're gonna make it through this one. so I have a potential break up on the line. I found out last night that my grandpa has lung cancer. My dad says as far as we know it's small. but who knows really. Work sucks. and if i could just quit and get another job trust me i would. but i cant. the last two weeks have been horrible. I doubt anybody even reads this blog. but at least it's somewhere to vent and that's what i made it for anyways.

one of my favs: fly to your heart

Watch all the flowers
Dance with the wind
Listen to snowflakes
Whisper your name

Feel all the wonder
Lifting your dreams
You can fly

Fly to who you are
Climb upon your star
You believe you'll find your wings
Fly to your heart

Touch every rainbow
Painting the sky
Look at the magic
Glide through your life

A sprinkle of pixie dust
Circles the night
You can fly

Fly to who you are
Climb upon your star
You believe you'll find your wings
Fly

Everywhere you go
Your soul will find a home
You'll be free
To spread your wings
Fly
You can fly
To your heart

Rise to the heights of all you can be
soar on the hope of marvelous things

Fly to who you are
Climb upon your star
You believe you'll find your wings
Fly

Everywhere you go
Your soul will find a home
You'll be free
To spread your wings
Fly
You can fly
To your heart

Sunday must've been good for everyone.

So My Sunday was interesting. I think you all might need some back up info on the day.My birthday is August 2nd , and ironically this year that fell on a fast sunday.. which for all my non mormon friends means we can't eat for 2-3 meals. So my birthday was not looking good ,and was preceeded by what might possibly have been the worst week ever. plus i was turning 21 . in my mind this all equaled out to a horrible birthday. well sunday starts out. the parents let me sleep in= awesome. so we go to church just in time for nursery , primary , and everything else. upon arriving to church i find out that the other nursery leader just skipped out without telling anyone so of course i'm freaking out because i'll have to watch 10 kids by myself with no toys because this same person has the ONLY set of keys to the Toy cabinents. DUMMMMBBB. i'm horrified. luckily we managed to find enough toys to keep the kids satisfied. this involved tons of book reading. that's fine. and i'm blessed enough that the parents and even missionaries dropped by every now and then to make sure i was ok. At one point i look over at adorable Christian who is grabbing himself like he has to pee. i ask him if he needs to go potty. he says no ...i'm cool. i turn around and look at Sweet little Ashlynn who is sitting on the other side of me and see this puddle of water... like something was spilling. she didnt have a cup...yeah I had asked the WRONG kid if they had to go to the bathroom. Ashlynn had just had a little accident. she looked as if she was going to cry , but me and the other mom quickly told her it wasnt her fault before she did. I took her to her father ,and we started to clean up the mess. good. snack time ,singing time, the rest of church goes by smoothly. we come home and eat the best cake ever...pics soon to follow. i finally decide that it's my birthday i'll regret it ,but i'm gonna take a nap. before my nap i read my book that Gus wrote me. Right before i went to bed i prayed that the lord would somehow give me gustavo but be able to get the work he needed done , done. P.s. i wished for gustavo when i blew out my candles. anyways. i wake up from the nap. we have dinner. parents leave for a viewing. I start cleaning my room. i happen to look down at my phone and see a missed call. it was from gustavo. 5 seconds later gustavo calls again. I'm a firm believer that the lord inspired gustavo to call me. Gustavo told me to be happy on my birthday.. maybe he got the vibe i was crying.. anyways after a phone call i hung up finished the last bit of my room and put in the tape gustavo made me for my bday and listend to Gustavo as i fell asleep. My birthday was actually really good. ok the end.