Self Discovery

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.

There you have it folks. I'm very insecure about the size of my thighs...and the way they look. Pretty much everything about them. That's not what I want to blog about though.

What I want to blog about are the things I've discovered about myself recently. First of all , I've come to realize how strong I am. Seriously i've been put through some tough stuff this year that would make most people want to give up. Well , tough for me , I'd like to think i'm not the only one who has my problems though. I've also realized exactly what I will and won't put up with from people. I've learned what I can deal with and what is just unacceptable. This has made me happier and less stressed lately. Good for me I say.

Also I've realized that i'm more environmentally conscious. I recycle more often.. I'm not perfect, but I'm getting there. I also have one of those reusable shopping bags. Silly ? Maybe, but it's a LOT nicer than having an overflowing amount of plastic bags under my sink. Also ( I won't have to worry about this for a few years but still) I'm going to use re-usable diapers with my children. The more I think about it the smarter it seems.

Something I'm still trying to figure out for myself? What exactly my clothing style is. I love bright colors, but i'm so afraid to wear bright clothes. Also that whole mix and match thing freaks me out. I want to try it because I just KNOW i'll love it if I do , but it scares me. On the other hand I love vintage clothes. I mean ADORE them. Plus it's a style I already know looks good on me , but that I don't really have anything in that particular area. It's conflicting. I feel like I need a style. Oh well.

As far as my day goes. I wake up super exhausted , Gregg comes over and I tell him ." Gregg, I don't want to ruin your plans, i'm just so tired. can we not give blood today and kind of take it easy?" He finally agrees and we clean out his car, vacuum it , and play Roller Coaster Tycoon. I start to get a little fever right NOW. The fever goes away so we go and walk around the mall. After the mall we go grocery shopping for Gregg. This is where it gets sad. I start feeling super sick. Like stomach sick and light headed and just out of it. We go get ice cream , but realize that I have a burning fever.

I really want to cuddle though, So we settle for 2 TV episodes then Gregg takes me home. Where I am currently fighting off an intense fever that came on suddenly and does not want to leave. I hate it you know. Anyways. I hope you enjoyed my blog of the day.