Thanks Homer for that little intro... So today's challenge is DAY 9. Well that's the one i'm doing RIGHT NOW. i'll do today's legit challenge later when i'm well rested and not so Sleeping pilled up. Today's post. ahem. Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most. While there are SEVERAL people who have gotten me through A LOT. I'm going to post the pictures of the 2 people who have gotten me through the most lately. By lately I mean The last 2 weeks of my life. They'll probably help me out a lot more too. Considering the huge deal of stress i've been dealing with. Okay ready ? I thought so.
I'm not so sure which picture is first , so I'll just go with Alphabetical order , and I'm positive you'll be able to figure out who is who. Okay deal.
Ginny : This girl. There are no words to describe her. literally. She's done me favor after favor after favor. When i'm feeling sad she always knows just what to do to make me feel better. We've had our ups and downs , mostly ups . She can make me laugh even when I don't want to. PLUS she's always on my side. Probably one of my favorite things about her. She also just lets me be sad and whine to her. I'm expected to do the same , but I totally don't mind.
Gregg: My boyfriend is better than yours. No seriously. This boy just sat with me for about an hour total and let me cry and cry and cry. He told me I'm beautiful even when i'm all puffy eyed and stuffed up from crying. He told me i'm always beautiful. He also told me i'll be okay. Even though i'm not quite sure I will be. He always knows what to say to get me to stop crying. ( I think it's mostly because he doesn't like to see me cry.) He does it in a way that makes me feel like everything will be okay. Because i'm that awesome of a person. He's everything I need and more in a guy. I'm never letting him go. EVER !!!
Okay on to more important matters. Not really important I guess , but they feel important to me and that's what matters most. Today has been SO ROUGH. remember that one post when I was going on about my pity party and said that my parents could go ahead and lecture me? Yeah they took me up on that. I WAS KIDDING!!! So. Moral of the story ? I decided to cut off contact from my parents for a while. They have no faith in me, they stress me out , and they don't support my decisions. Not fully anyways. So for right now , until I'm not so stressed and can handle all the stress they shovel my way I've decided to just... take a break.
Ginny and I were talking and I was telling her that I was going to take a break she said " You just can't let them get to you." I told her that I wasn't sure I could ever get to a point where they didn't get to me. Her short story answer was , If I can one day get to a point where I don't let *regina get to me , then you can do the same with your parents. and by golly we'll get there ! So what did I do ? I killed Nazi Zombies to get rid of all the anger I was feeling , took 2 sleeping pills to forget everything else i'm dealing with , and I'm going to take a night off from worrying about pleasing my parents. Because that will never happen.
I may be a horrible person for taking a break , but honestly I feel it's the best thing for me right now. I feel super worthless right now and I don't deserve that. I know I'm trying hard to fix my life and I shouldn't have to prove that to everyone I see. Especially the people who are NEVER EVER going to believe me. I have my 2 above mentioned friends , who SEE how hard i'm trying. Who SEE the good in me. Who are constantly making me feel like I am doing better. Those are the kinds of people I need in my life. That's who i'm keeping around. Later Taters.
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