You'll be happy to hear...

You will be happy to hear that i'm happy. You'll also be happy to hear i'm perfectly terrified out of my mind. I was... you know , i can't remember what I was doing. Anyways , point of the story is I decided i'm terrified to have kids. Scared enough that i almost don't ever want to have any. (I still do, don't flip out) I'm afraid i'll be a horrible mother. Which Gregg says that's a good fear because it probably means I will be a good mommy , because i'll try that much harder ,because i'm worried about it. I love that man. I'm also terrified to get married one day. Funny how that changes huh? I know I still want to get married , but i'm scared out of my mind about it. I just want it to be me and Gregg forever. Just like it is now. well not JUST like it is now ,but basically the same. I want us to be this in love forever. I want us to always be excited to see each other. anyways. another thing you'll be happy to hear...The snow is starting to melt. Which makes for a very restless Afton , and a very happy Gregg and Afton. Like I said though. It makes me restless for sunshine. I NEED a beach. I'm trying to talk Gregg into making a beach trip with me this spring/summer. Maybe that's going to require a quick visit to GA?? we shall see. I feel a Tybee Island visit in the making. I'd rather hit up Cali , but Gregg does not like that idea so much. I'm a yearnin for a sunburnin though. No joke. Today I started weaning myself onto my Jello diet. I'm stoked to drop weight fast the unhealthy way.lol. Seriously though. STOKED. As soon as it's warm enough for me to want to walk to the club house , i'm going to start tanning. HAHAH Brett , Mom , you can go ahead and laugh. I know you wanna. But really i am. you will be so jealous of me. Maybe not Brett though. Anyways. I'm going to bed. LOVE YA'LL! Stay classy America...( okay maybe not america. Maybe just ya'll who read my boring life)