late night ponderings...

So I've been thinking. as much as I wanted Gustavo home from his mission before , I just get the feeling that he might actually be coming home from his mission because of his leg. I'm not gettin my hopes up because like my mom said " you're a newberry , and newberrys never get what they want." I just even had a dream about it , and i dunno . I just dont know what to think anymore. I think i've just reached the point where i dont care either way. It's not like i could marry him right away if he did come home. It'd be at least August or September of this year before i could even AFFORD to marry him. but him coming home would be the solution to ALL of my problems...I hate to put it that way but it would be. for example. My mom wants me in my own apartment by my birthday... Gustavo coming home would fix that. I want my friend Liz to be one of my bridesmaids...she wants to go on her mission , she would leave sometime in the fall of this year. Gustavo coming home would fix THAT!!! there is another example , but I think we'll settle for two. So you see how that would fix everything? But even I know by now that the Lord is NOT going to just hand me the most convenient option. :( so we'll just see what happens and continue dreaming that he comes home. Because i cant feel guilty about dreams. :D