Thanks Gregg

SO. Today I called Gregg. I was like " GREGG! We're getting married in 88 days almost ! He's like yeah it's coming so soon. I was like Yeah I know I'm excited. He's like you're not freaking out thinking oh my gosh why am I marrying this guy ? I was like no. Should I be? he's like nah." Well I talked to my dad like 20 min later and was like. I'm starting to freak out dad. I'm like, I know I want to marry him , I know he wants to marry me. I'm freaking out because am I really ready ?

My father , the angel that he is , said the 2 words that I needed to hear right in that moment. He just said simply. " you're ready" I said but am I really? He then told me. Getting married is like having a kid. You're never ready. You can be more prepared for it , but you're never ready. Which is kinda funny because I was just telling my sister that the other day. I told her. " I'm pretty sure nobody prepares you enough for marriage. I'm pretty sure they try but in the end it's more like they throw you in and say 'okay figure out what works best for you'" Brett agreed.

I know I should enjoy just being engaged , but how can I enjoy this , when really all I want is to be married to my best friend already ? I miss him and I really can't wait to spend eternity with him. On a side note , i'm considering deleting my blog. I don't know that anybody really reads it , and let's be honest. It's not like i'm that interesting anyways. Opinions ?