Sometimes

Sometimes I feel way younger than I am. I still feel 17 most days. I still look 17. Most days. Sometimes I feel older than I am though. Like today. When I feel 25. Not that I even know what 25 feels like , but I feel that how I feel would be the way a 25 year old Afton would feel. If you were able to make any sense out of that I would like to say congrats.

Gregg has a job interview today. I'm getting married in 80 days. I feel like I should be older. Someone older than me would have more of an idea of what life is all about. Someone with more experience would know how to be a good wifey. Someone who's actually lived life. Then again , I guess nobody is ever truely prepared for marriage. Or life in general.

Some people walk in the light. I've been applying for jobs and after applying basically EVERYWHERE , I can't even get an interview , Brett has a job though, Gregg will probably get this job that he has the interview for , putting him up to 2 jobs. I however can't get anything. LAME SAUCE. Gregg said that chrysallis ( his first job) would have a job for me though in August , when I move back out. Well that doesn't help me now.

I have a wedding band that I need to buy , but can't. I can't afford it. Branbury sucks , so i'm probably going to end up having to pay them for every month that i'm not there. I guess we'll find out about that in August. Depends on if they can sell my contract or not. I'm gonna go now. I think i'll go read a book