Strange

I wanted to make a quick note about this. Then I'll be done. I promise. Hopefully.

I had this BEST FRIEND all through high school. We met in science class freshman year and were immediately inseparable. Okay so we graduate. For a year after graduation we still hung out and were still talking and best friends the year after. So let's to the math. We were friends for 4 yrs of high school, 1 year after wards , and we still talked the year after that. ( I was in utah , she was in GA) 4+1+1 = 6 years. Overnight This girl , this best friend , decides to never talk to me again. I can't for the life of me figure it out. It kills me , because I REALLY want to still be her friend. I just don't understand.

This little factoid led me to think about this. Have you guys ever had that one person that you were just super jealous of . To the extent that you always being jealous of them starts to annoy your boyfriend. Or other friend ? anyone in general. You're so jealous of this person , that you compare yourself to them and are just SO sure that you guys could never truly get along because you'd always compare yourself to them? All of the sudden this person turns out to be one of your favorite person and you think to yourself. Wow. We actually get along pretty well.

Well i'll start out with this little fridge quote that my mom has. " Don't compare yourself to others. You don't know what direction their life is taking them." Now Gregg said something kind of like this to me when we were first dating about my person like this.

I don't know if this person feels like we get along really well or even considers me one of her best friends, and that's completely okay. really. But it was that way with me. I really didn't ever expect to have this... friendship if that's the word with her, because there would be something every day that I was just SO jealous of .It was like a competition. It was stupid and immature because I missed out on ...okay probably not much, but it's something that if Gregg hadn't have given me a little reality check , i could've missed out on big time.

I know I've really only been "planning" this wedding for 3 weeks, and by planning i mean giving the yea or nay to my moms ideas. or working compromises , or trying to get the ideas for engagement pics and stuff like that. I'm already stressed to the max. My mantra almost every single minute of the day is " I'm marrying Gregg. No one else has to like it. You're marrying Gregg. You're own wedding. Don't be jealous that other people are getting married first , or are getting engaged and more people are telling them congrats than you. "

It's really been something that's stressing me out. I need to just have that quote everywhere. " Don't compare yourself to others. You don't know what direction their life is taking them " Why waste time and energy being jealous ? I've got my prince charming. I'm MARRYING my prince charming. I shouldn't care if the whole world didn't like it. We're in love. We both couldn't imagine a future without each other , because as Gregg put it : " a future without you , wouldn't be a future at all." We're cheezy I know.

Okay so if you made it through this whole post without falling asleep or throwing up , You win a pat on the back. Also comment and one day i'll make you cookies. Or something. Just for future knowledge i'm seriously going to try and go on a blogging diet. starting this Sunday you will hear from me once a week. On Sundays. Just.. go easy on me. I've never been good at diets.