Engaged.

No, not me you sillies. I had ya'll excited for a second huh ? Sorry. Does not look like i'll be joining the Brinkerhoff clan anytime soon.

This is about Juice bag ex-boyfriend. Don't worry. I'm not going to be too mean. It's just that Today A friend and I found out he's engaged. Everyone has been asking me how I feel about this. If I have to answer that one more time I might pop. SO : For all you wondering here's how I feel about it.

I've been getting the feeling that he's engaged for a while now. So to actually find out he is really didn't come as a surprise and really doesn't bother me. Good for him.
Everyone wants to know if i'm pissed. Let's just say these things right here.

This boy was emotionally abusive to me for close to 2 years. Am I pissed that I'm not the one he's engaged to ? Definitely not. I'm glad I got out of that relationship when I did. I knew the Lord had better things in store for me. back in July/August ,during the week Gregg and I were broken up , yeah I missed this guy a little. I had the opportunity to see him though and all feelings for him went away. Completely. I know I'm not supposed to be with him. So no , i'm not pissed he's not engaged to me.

Am I pissed that after all the crap he's put me through that he gets to be happy ? Absolutely. I'm pissed that a guy who was so horrible to me gets to have everything just laid at his feet. Heck , I bet his parents bought the ring for him. Do I think that's fair ? Absolutely not. It bothers me a lot. Is it my call though ? No. Some people (sometimes it feels like everyone) are going to have it easier than me. I am pissed that he gets to be happy and engaged , when every single day I'm afraid that Gregg is going to dump me. When on days like today Gregg doesn't know if he wants to marry me ever and i'm afraid i'm going to lose him. No I don't enjoy it. Yes, it does piss me off.

All in all though. I wish him and the girl well. I hope they have a happy life together and I really hope he doesn't screw her over like he did to me. I hope she knows what she's getting herself into. I'm not going to be all mad or be all sad and depressed about another person I know getting engaged while I sit here and twiddle my thumbs. It's not going to make anything better. I know the Lord will make it happen for me when it's supposed to. I'm willing to wait.