Such is life

"The person you are going to marry is walking the Earth at this very second. That thought alone should give you hope to continue each and every day."


I've discovered this website called www.givesmehope.com It's very inspiring and I'm going to try to post one on my blog every day. Today and all this week really , this one has been in my head. So this is the one I will post today. What with everything going on in the lives of Gregg and I things are ... well we won't worry about it. Let's just say this is what's keeping me from not giving up on the whole institution of marriage in general. Right now i'm just going to enjoy us for what we are. If he decides for sure that he doesn't want to marry me , then that's cool. Right now we're loving where we're at and all the experiences and opportunities being together is (are?) bringing us.

Today Gregg was REALLY stressed. Not that I can blame the guy. His job pretty much laid him off, and so he really needs a job. He was stressing out because he's applied to like a billion places and no one is calling him back. Well tonight I finally got him to calm down a little bit by telling him that I was really proud of him for being so responsible and such by looking for a job. I also reminded him that he had money in the bank , he can sell plasma , and that he had all these cans and stuff he can recycle for extra cash. Then I gave him a kiss and guess what ?! He felt better. Then almost as soon as he was feeling better he got a call for an interview. See? He's going to be okay. I just know it.

I'm also very concerned about cash. Not that i'm in a bad place ,but I don't WANT to be put in a bad place again , so i'm looking for any and every way to get extra cash. After talking to Gregg and Ginny , we've decided that maybe I should sell my eggs. ( haha feeling awkward yet?) Truth is I think it's a good idea. Moral? That's for everyone to decide for themselves. I'm okay with it. I'm giving people who can't have kids an opportunity to do so , and they're doing me a favor by helping me get out of debt and get some money in the bank. Besides , what are the odds that i'm going to need ALL of my eggs just for myself. I only want 4 kids. I figure if i keep like as many as possible , and selling some i'll be okay. Plus if things happen down the road there's always adoption. Which is also in turn a good idea, because then i'm giving kids a family who don't have one otherwise. See ? I've thought this through. I'm comfortable with my decision too. So think what you want , but i'm probably going to do it. Besides , those parents would be getting one GOOD LOOKING kid.

That's pretty much where i'm at right now. That's what's going on in my life. BIG decisions. Tomorrow however might be really cool. Gregg and I are going to donate plasma , and maybe , if he wakes up in time see the guy that catch me if you can is about. We all know the story , about the guy who got rich by making fraud checks , got thrown in jail , and now makes bank working for the Government catching people who do the same exact thing. If we go i'll try to get a picture. Wouldn't that be cool ?! This my friends is why I LOVE my school.