Bittersweet

I hate my job. I hate my Computer. I hate the economy. I hate the fact that Kim is making Ginny sad. I just want everything to be happy.

I like Gregg. A LOT. When i'm with him everything is Good. All my worries melt away. I'm where I need to be with him. Well for right now anyway. We talk , we laugh... we do everything. We're weird together. It's perfect. in all randomness it's now 1:23 am. haha. anyways. I wish ... I wish Gregg and I have been dating for longer. I never want him to leave.

I want to cry. tears of joy. tears of sadness. I just want to cry. I want to be with my mommy and daddy. Sad thing is , is that the other day before the movie Gregg took me to , there was a preview for a dog movie. I cried during the preview because i miss my puppy.

My mom waited to tell me because she didnt want me to be alone when I heard the news... but what about every other time ? Who's supposed to be here for me now ?! I just want to come home. I want some place to call home. I want someone to love me. For all my flaws and imperfections. I'm so emotional. ( p.s. the news is that my puppy got put to sleep)

anyways. i'm going to cry myself to sleep now. I'm so full of so many emotions. and nobody wants to hear them. not all of them. It sucks.