Mkay...

Scroll down to the post with all the pictures... cows and me and boy. that one. I miss that guy. I miss the beginning days like dates like that when everything was exciting. Now we're just friends. I can live with that , but I look back at it ( it was last month for crying out loud) like i look back at my childhood. I LOVED MY CHILDHOOD. everything was good. I yearn to go back to the day when the biggest worry i had was what i was going to eat for dinner , and who was gonna come and play with me. I'm the kinda girl who loves comfort and routine, but i LIVE for new and exciting. I like it when new and exciting becomes the comfort and routine. but i have to replace that new and exciting with something else. right then. Right now my New and exciting just turned into comfort and routine... and New and exciting has yet to be found. and i'm getting a little anxious. like i'm waiting for christmas in a way... Anyways. i'm just missing the last month of my life. no worries , Ryan is one of the bestest friends a girl could ask for. but that's it. Something new and exciting will come along... I just have to be patient and wait for it to jump into my arms. I think tomorrow after work. when i'm hanging with Ryan, I will go on a mini photo shoot. In this outfit. Because i like it. and i need new pictures. then when i babysit my Boyzz... I will get all of those kiddos in on it too. I need some photoshoot time. I wonder if their mamma will let me take them to play somewhere. I think she will. i've babysat them for like ...7 almost 8 years? crazy. i feel old. their youngest is 6 now?? i've babysat them since their 7 yr old was a baby. wowwww. I love babysitting like that. I remember changing a girl in our ward's diapers... she's 12 now. woww. yeah so anyways... i'm gonna go nowww.