this may be the wrong thing to say...

But... I want Gustavo home, and I want him home now. I don't like this whole mission thing anymore. SURE I want him to be happy. NO , I'm not praying for it to happen. But I SURE AM THINKING IT. ALL THE TIME. I'm so done with it. I need him here. I think I just realized how much. Like seriously. I need him. he's pretty much , my life. I miss his hugs, kisses, everything about him I miss. I've missed him so much lately that it's actually making me nauseous. It's been like this since oh ... thursday night. yeah. He's the only one who understands me completely. He never pressures me into stuff I dont want to do. I got a letter from him and he was telling me how it was Raining in CALI, and how he remembered how we used to watch movies or General Conference during the rain , and occasionally...( like twice maybe..) I fell asleep on him. ( not literally ppls.) As I read this I smiled and thought .. I miss that, and I do. I miss him and everything we used to do like CRAZY. He's the only person I want to cuddle with. To Marry , fall asleep next to every night for the rest of eternity. and that's exactly what I want with him. ETERNITY. We could live in a snowball for the rest of our lives and as long as I was with him , i'd be happy. I'd be more than willing to live with him in S.L.U.T. forever. I think i'll dream of him tonight.