Ok here goes...

This is what was going on Sunday. I was having one of my... withdrawel days. After talking to a good friend Aubrey, I worked it all out. I really do love Gustavo. I can't picture life without him. I guess what's happening is I've never been in a relationship this long.Also my sisters and I arent really known for commitment , we're known for flirting. lol . But... It seems that we've broken a trend. Brett is finally in a relationship ( we never expected that) and has been for almost 3 months. It's amazing. this is the girl who taught ME how to flirt. She's that good. but she's in a relationship , and although she wont say it out loud until he says it first ( you go girl!) she loves him. Me? I've been in the longest relationship i've ever been in. almost 2 years!!! I think it scares me too. I've never been with a guy who simply wants to be with me. I'm not used to this. I think the fact that i am going to be with him for the rest of my life scares me. no , i'm looking forward to it. I'm just scared of the unknown. I dont know what life has in store for us and it scares me. I dont know if we'll be good parents. i dont know how we'll handle actual married life. when you're dating it's different. You're still trying to win the person, you want to make sure they want to keep you. after that... well you've got them. the little details dont matter to you as much anymore. anyways. that's what was going on. I'm ok now. I realize that as scarey as it is , he's probably just as scared , but we'll have each other to lean on during the tough times. And Gustavo... I promise that i'll remember the little things. that way we'll always love each other. And we'll make everyday an adventure... it will be exciting and unexpected. it will be fun. that's my promise to you!!!