Longing....

Remember that apartment I told you guys about WAAAAAYYYY long ago?
ok maybe not that long ago. just like 2 weeks ago. Well I was doing math. Which we ALL can laugh at , but I was doing it. Guess what I discovered? It's not as "out of our budget" as I thought. Well it won't be after I get my one degree. which hopefully I'll have by this July or August. Isn't that great? I thought so!!!

On another random subject before I get to my real point of this blog... I'm in love with the t.v. show Hells Kitchen. I think only Liz knows this and that's because she got me into it. anyways I wan't to go to Los Angeles JUST to see the uhm , place where they film it. It's really pretty . forget the fact that my boyfriend/fiancee/missionary is in that area. no. I just want to see this building. anyways, I had a dream that I got to be on the show , and you know what. Chef Ramsey liked me. he was nice to me. he thought i was GOOD. so i thought of any reason that he would've kept me on there. I can't really cook anything. I can cook :Pork , Rice , Egg Drop Soup. I had another thing on my list way early this morning. I forgot it though. so that dream was shattered.

Now to my real topic. Longing. I'm in nursery as several of you know. It was a not so good day today.The kids behaved just fine , but after snack time you could tell EVERYONE was tired. Including us leaders. Well Claire finally snapped. When I say snapped I mean SNAPPED. She was done. She just started crying and would NOT stop. It started out one of those cries that you would normally find annoying , but since we (the leaders ) knew what was going on , It wasn't annoying. we actually felt bad for her. She was tired and had gotten to the point where she just felt misunderstood. She definately just needed to cry. What do i do? I pick her up and just sit in a chair rocking her.Claire's the bossy one out of the bunch, so when she cries somethings going on. Anyways. I think we bonded. Usually she doesnt let anyone besides her mom hold her. She did today. It made me want a little girl so bad. I still only want one or two , but she ... aghhh I want one so bad.

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