Midnight Madness...

AGHH it's midnight and i have to work in the morning. I also have an appointment at the Institute i want to go to. in order to get my RN. But i dont even see the point anymore. in order to even qualify for financial aid , my mom has to sign something , and she wont. She doesnt want me going to this school and even if it was a school she'd want me to go to , she still wouldnt sign anything. why? because she doesnt want to help with financial aid again. The one thing i've wanted in my life, and i cant even do it. I finally found something i want to do , and i cant do it. It's so frustrating. I feel like i'm always going to be stuck at cfa and i dont want to be. I'm so lost and confused , and have NO idea what to do