I'm SCARED!!

Sorry , but I had to take a moment to write down my worries... I'm scared. Mostly i'm scared that Gustavo will wake up one day and NOT love me anymore. Nobody really understands why i'm so worried about this , and sometimes i'm not even sure why but today has been one of those days where i feel like nobody else really loves me and i'm just worried that the day will come when Gustavo will wake up and think to himself " I dont love her" and it breaks my heart just thinking about it. I mean i guess the phrase :"you dont know what you have till it's gone " is right. I didnt know how in love with Gustavo i was until he left , and now i'm afraid that one day he'll decide he just doesnt love me. I'm all of the sudden crying again, and i just cant stop. I wish he was here , and i wish he could just smile my fears away. but he's not. I dont want to sound like i complain all the time because i dont , and lately time has gone by faster. like seriously it feels like just yesterday it was monday , not thursday. I just want Gustavo to come home. I think that's the only time when i'll be perfectly content knowing he loves me still... Wow , this was really long and i still dont feel much better.